Monday, May 22, 2006

Stream of Consciousness

"The only people for me are the mad ones, the ones who are mad to live, mad to talk, mad to be saved, desirous of everything at the same time, the ones who never yawn or say a commonplace thing, but burn, burn, burn, like fabulous yellow roman candles exploding like spiders across the stars..." -Jack Kerouac

(listening to White Plains by JVslice - live)

The above quote is on a magnet on the fridge downstairs. Last night, I went downstairs at 4am to get a drink of water and I stood reading it over and over...So there I stood at 4am in my pink fuzzy robe and my glass of water - for some reason the quote made me want to dance, always makes me want to dance. So dance I did - I set down my glass of water - neglected my much needed (pre monday morning) sleep. I arabesqued, dancing Demi-Pointe, I Pirouetted across my kitchen and felt free. I can only imagine any of my four other roommates coming downstairs at this point to use the restroom. That would have been a better story.

I miss dancing, the only moment I ever feel totally free is spinning and jumping on a wood floor with music blaring. And that's been years past by me....I'm so out of shape and ill balanced.

If I could be anywhere at this moment I would be on empty wooden stage with a single spotlight blinding me from seeing past the stage. Music would be loud and overwhelming. I would be barefoot in a simple cotten dress and I would begin to dance - improve and free. Maybe that's what I'll do for my 30th B-day instead of a party.

Right now I write in my room. I never turned my light on so as the sun has come down there is just the glow of my laptop. It hits a section of my dark pink wall and glows. Minutes ago I was listening to David Bowie and making shadow puppets of devil horns and rabbits agianst my wall. Try it next time you listen to David B. The pink walls had a erie look to it when attacked by shadow bunnies while Moonidge Daydream played on.

Last night I saw live soccor for the first time. Portland won agianst Toronto. Go Portland! It was fun watching the Timbors Army chant songs and go crazy when we scored a point and Timbor Jim sawed off a piece of wood.

It rained so hard on the way home.I don't know if I've ever seen anything like it here - and in Portland that's saying a lot. It was like the rain was making up for the last few weeks of crazy hot temps - wow. It rained so hard you couldn't see in front of you with the wipers on high. There was lightning and thunder. It was glorious - well for those of us in a car.

Since I last updated my blog I've sold merch for Bryan Free at one of the best show's I'VE EVER SEEN!! He totally upstaged the headlining band at the Crystal Ballroom. Screaming fans. Crazy beautiful rock and melodies. I watched the show in awe and speechless (which says a lot when coming from me). It was a mad rush at the merch table - I adored every second of the mayhem. The girls standing in line for him to sign cd's. Perfect.

light from heaven


I went to my one of my best friends, Jake's, wedding.

Jake & John

I am so happy for him - I think he got more than he deserves from Lisa and he is pretty lucky.


It was a sweet, simple and beautiful wedding. There was the near miss when he almost choked on communion.

My responsiblites were picking up the crazy amount of cases of beer and wine and setting it up, and buying ice. Easy right? well not when my car broke down and I tried to fix it. I changed the Fuel Filter. An hour before the I was supposed to be at the wedding with the alcohol, I stood at my care with oil and fuel covering my arms and face. The car still wasn't really fixed = because it turns out I still need a new fuel pump - but I cleaned my self up and managed to clunk over to the wedding just in time. The key word is clunk.

I saw the Derby show at Dante's. It was a great show, I had a creepy 4ft tall - bald - forty year old - bug eyed - stalker, but it was a good show so that made up for it.

Derby - in Motion

I went with one of my friends, Noemi.

Noemi and I

It was a blast.

Looking ahead: Hanging out with some flight attendant and pilot friends on Tuesday, Fixing my car on Wednesday, Bryan Free @ Holocene on Thursday, Crosstide @ Doug Fir on Friday (post manicures and pedicures!!), Friends Greek Wedding on Saturday, Sunday - Monday (?) Maybe a little music festival with Beck????? A busy week - I CAN'T WAIT!!

1 comment:

BethInPortland said...

"If I could be anywhere at this moment I would be on empty wooden stage with a single spotlight blinding me from seeing past the stage. Music would be loud and overwhelming. I would be barefoot in a simple cotton dress and I would begin to dance - improv and free."


I love this--I feel the same way. If I could have the voice of an angel--or of a tempstress, or could dance like a leaf blowing fancifully down an old country road....that would be truly amazing. Alas, I don't have that kind of talent. But I dream of it.
Keep writing Teresa, I love it!

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